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Here is my journal I kept during my refresh.
To give you somewhat of an idea of what it was like.
Best part about this! You get to eat food!!! It isn’t one of those awful fasting cleanses.
Day 1 Refresh
Felt pretty good. No major cravings or anything.
Just need to highlight the fact that when they say drink the fiber mixture immediately. DO IT. Lol It congeals and gets thick of you do not drink it right away. My suggestion: chug it.
I was proud of myself too! I even went out with my friends to a bar and just drank water all night! I didn’t let temptation get in my way. (but boy did that glass of wine look good….)
Day 2 Refresh
I have honestly been struggling kind of all day
I am starving right now but I haven’t had my vanilla shake yet. Just about to drink it!
I keep dreaming about this bbq chicken grilled cheese sandwich. I am seeing it in my dreams right now lmao…
Monday can’t come fast enough!!!
Ok so I almost had it tonight. I was so hungry and feeling weak.
Then I realized…
Rule #1- DO NOT do a 3 day refresh right after you were recovering from a pretty nasty stomach bug. Probably not the best idea (I’m not sure but I am not going to recommend it to anyone! Baha). I was already exhausted
Rule #2- If you do something like that, just take it easy the whole weekend. Don’t even try to anything other than a light walk etc… I tried to do yoga and I just couldn’t make it through.
Rule #3- Do eat the dinner. EAT the dinner. Omg haha I think that is where my hunger problems came from yesterday. I forgot to eat a proper dinner on Day 1.
For dinner I had a carrot, broccoli, collard greens, bean pods (if that is even what you call them haha) etc. Basically a vegetable medley. That really helped.
Day 3 Refresh
Still feeling full from last night’s dinner thank God haha
Just had my water, now it is shakeo time ❤
I cannot emphasize enough how you should literally mix your fiber sweep and immediately chug it. This doesn’t give the fiber time to absorb the water and become thick/chunky. CHUG THAT SH*** :-p
Omg where did the time go!
So I am officially feeling great.
I had enough energy to go to the playground with my niece today and even carry her on my shoulders half the way! Haha and I am still awake and working my butt off!
Overall, loved the 3 day refresh. I am positive it is going to help me with my food cravings from now on, and help me boost my energy during the day.
Just eat the dinners, for the love of god. Do not run around like a hangry beast :-p
Because I went through it, still go through it, and there is a huge stigma around mental illnesses. 1/4-1/5 people suffer from a form of mental illness in their life time (that is a huge number). Many of them do so silently because they are afraid of being judged or misunderstood- and for good reason. I even suffer from that time to time. I’m pretty open about it, but I’ve had people treat me differently after I opened up to them. I just don’t want people to suffer in silence. I want them to be heard, to get the help they need, and feel secure in seeking that help. How many people die/commit suicide because they didn’t feel like they had anywhere to go or people to talk to? How many people do not seek the help they need because they feel like it makes them look weak or “different?” It shouldn’t be that way. It should be treated like any other illness, something that occurs and is manageable. There is no reason why people with mental illnesses shouldn’t live normal lives, or at least as normal as possible. I want to make lives better, educate people to understanding, and love. Just love everyone I can <3. haha
Is that too much?? :-p
Because that is how I really feel baha
I mean we all have problems. I feel like having gone through those things just makes me a better person and more able to connect and understand. Empathy overload :-p But I have always been like that, why I allow myself to get hurt, and over think EVERYTHING. ❤
Why else live this life if you can’t make a difference in the world?
Nothing else will live on except for the imprints you make in the lives of the people around you.
I FINALLY got a good nights sleep without the aid of medication.
I hate having to take my meds to sleep. But alas sometimes my brain will just not shut off and I either stay up all night, or I wake up multiple times during the night. So I do what I have to do in order to make sure I am well rested. 🙂
I am also going to finish completely cleaning my room today. Anyone else just feel sooo much better when their room is clean? It is almost like a weight taken off my shoulders. Just sucks that I am so talented at messing it up again lol 😦 I just have so many things from my entire apartment that I had to shove into my old room. Let’s just say it is a tight squeeze and I am struggling to make it organized/neat.
Well today I just want to say carpe diem!!! Seize the day!!!!
I plan to:
catch up on all things Beachbody today
Apply to jobs
finish my 3 day refresh with a bang!!!!
spend family time with my sister and her family (maybe I can take my niece to the playground and get a little “workout” action in haha)
What are you planning for your day! Get up, get going and kill it! You got this!
Take a moment to reflect on how beautiful you are! List the positives!
If you aren’t doing everything you can to be the best you can- make changes today!!! Set a goal list!! Dream BIG!
My goals are:…
1. Start a charity to help those with mental illnesses have better accessibility to fitness facilities and or programs. Exercise and nutrition plays a huge part in being mentally healthy. It isn’t a cure, is it just another method that really works! Sometimes the only good part of my day is when I walk into that gym and go for it!
2. Do as many 5ks as I possibly can this year. I also want to set up a booth at everyone and help raise funds/awareness for mental illnesses. I want to play my part in breaking then stigma.
3. Get a good job and work hard. Save up money, and reward myself with a vacation.
4. Do a bikini competition. This is my goal I have set for myself, so hopefully in a year I will!!
5. Focus on myself. I need to take care of me for a while. Take the time I need to accomplish my goals.
6. Last but not least! I hope I can inspire and help people in being a Beachbody coach. It’s a great company! I love it so far. .
So I have moved back home and for the most part I am settled in.
(besides the fact that my trunk is still packed full of things… <– out of sight out of mind right! lol)
The move back home has been hard. It is hard going from being fully independent (for the most part) to fully relying on your parents again for everything. I mean EVERYTHING. I still don’t have a full time job so they are paying for all my bills, including my rent for my apartment in NY. My lease technically ends in July (long story…). I found myself crying in bed for no reason and being tired. Oh so tired. My friend was you “you are depressed…” I was wow I hadn’t noticed :-p. I knew it was going to happen, I knew it would be hard. I am doing better though.
I found the world’s tiniest job basically just being a middle school girl’s companion from 6:30am to 7:30am in the morning after her mother leaves. So while we are seriously taking some major baby steps in getting to where we want to be, I will take what I can get!
Also you are looking at a brand new Beachbody Coach!! My friend believed in me enough to spend her OWN money on the package to get me started! So I CANNOT thank her enough, and I can’t wait to help make a difference in people’s lives! This is also going to be a huge help in getting me up and out of bed each morning. I need a purpose in life, and lately I have felt pretty much useless and blah. Now I have something to do, and goals to work towards and that makes a world of a difference.
I already woke up this morning with the biggest smile on my face!! ❤
i can’t help the tumultuous feelings raging in my head. What have I done with my life other than made a huge mess of it? I trust people without them having earned that trust, and therefore I am made vulnerable and am easily hurt.
Having one of those days where nothing is going right and it had made it all even worse.
It is too cold outside for me to try to fix my headlight and wipers myself. I don’t want to sit outside in negative degree weather and try to figure out something I’ve never done before. Bad idea on my part. I just wanted to be independent and try. I need to get my car inspected though and it won’t pass without those things fixed. I left to go get started on taking care of these things and just kept forgetting one thing after another. Finally at the third trip back to the apartment I just broke down, and here I am, in bed.
I cried today, because i am confused. I don’t understand things. If people won’t talk to me, how are we ever going to resolve anything. Am I that bad of a person that one little thing goes wrong people just turn away from me? What kind of cold human beings am I associating myself with. I thought you were my friend, I thought you cared. I thought we understood one another, and we’re going to figure out how to make it work. I guess not. I guess I was horribly wrong. You seem to be content to leave me in the dark.
I am sensitive to tone and pitch, as I am sure a lot of you are. The way people speak to me is critical to how I will feel. If you raise your voice, snap at me, or just generally say anything impolite it resonates in my would. I am way too empathetic as well.
I need attention, or at least just a simple kiss, hug, hold my hand, cuddle with me. Let me know you are aware that I exist and I am something special to you. I need love. I need you to want to care for me in these ways. You would never know by the way I act, but I am terribly in need of reassurance. I have been beaten down psychologically in my past, and I have such a hard time doing it on my own.
I know when I am depressed, and I can definitely say that this recent bout has thrown me into a mini darkness. But I will come out, I will fight, and the baby steps I take to fix and organize my life will be my greatest reward in the end.
but right now, I just want to pass out into oblivion.
Sleep defies me.
Regret hangs loose in the air.
Grasping for anything in the darkness
Clinging to hope.
Battling my demons.
Thoughts swirling in my mind.
The visions I see in my dreams.
They aren’t real.
They can’t be real.
Sometimes you feel lost and alone.
You know that isn’t the case.
All the people in the world surrounding you could not banish it.
For those who dream of better things, hope for a brighter future, and dread the unknown that the days bring.
The past six months I have been dealing with the fallout from a relationship that shoulve ended years ago. That is why I have been so inactive. Plus he holidays etc. I hope you are are safe and happy and enjoyed your holidays.
I have been keeping up with my workouts beginning again this week. Between th stress and the holidays and working 60 hours a week it has been hard. But it feels so good to be getting back at it again.
i just have to ask for prayers and support. I am locked into a lease I desperately need to get rid of. I have a place waiting for me that is going to charge me $400 flat, and it is a gorgeous home. I currently cannot afford the place I am in right now and I am far behind on everything. Please pray, or send positive vibes my way that someone will take this apartment away from me. I am even offering some of my furniture.
Love You all.
Here are some photos of what I have bee up to lately ❤️💋
I am a busy girl, and between working out and my 3 jobs right now I get a little tired. Therefore mass posting occurs!
First on my agenda is my gym friend’s competition! She worked so hard, and really stuck to her meal plans, so of course she looked amazing! You can follow her progress etc. at: Instagram: ashl3ycrews
Here are some photos from her show:
I have met some really great and friendly people at my jobs, and have had a strange resurgent in my social life. Don’t get me wrong, I totally love it! I am just tiirreedddd lol I am slowly starting to realize I am not as young as I used to be :-p I neeeed my sleep! Specially with everything I am doing! However, how can I say no to the opportunity to do myself up and go out! My favorite thing to do! As well as be with fun and sweet people!
First on my list is my night out with the other Ashley! (too many Ashleys lol) She is also working towards a competition of her own and runs her own Instagram page: ashleyclyne ! We went out in toga a couple of times recently (she just turned 21 recently so of course I love taking her out and being her DD!). Here are some photos of our shenanigans and some photos of her herself so you can see what she is all about!
Alsooo my idea to make a Halloween costume totally fell through when the sewing machine ended up being broken! I had a backup plan though so I went to see Hunter Hayes instead! It was such an amazing concert and fun! He is so talented, and a complete cutie. He played many different guitars, the piano, and the drums during the concert. Had a really really fun time!
My life is still hard right now. I am making some extremely difficult decisions that I am not too happy about. Some of which make me vulnerable, and I hate feeling unsure and insecure. I will push through this though and be stronger than ever in the end, like always. I am just glad I have so much to do to keep me busy, helps me to keep going. Plus I am meeting some great people who have really brightened my days as well <3. I haven’t had any major depression or anxiety problems since last year! So hooray for that! 🙂
I did it! I ran my first 5k! When I say ran, I actually successfully ran the whole way! I am so proud of myself 🙂 I didn’t think I could do it honestly! I haven’t run a full 3.5 miles in like ummm 2 or more years I think. So when I went today I thought I would just do my best, and I did!
Although let me tell you… Ummm I might have gone a little off course.
Yes! Embarrassingly enough I managed to somehow run past a turn, and proceed to run up this very large, steep hill that I almost died trying to climb… Only to realize that there was no one else around me anymore! I therefore had to turn around, and run down through the woods to find the rest of the runners. I emerged from the forest to find people I had passed a ways back looking at me like what the heck!!! Bahaha :-p Yup I am one of those people blessed with the ability to do something wrong/get lost no matter what! I was laughing at myself the whole way home.
So instead of 3.5 miles I am pretty sure I ran at least 4 miles, and I am going to be taking 5 or so minutes off my time! LOL Oh geez…. Really!!!????