I know I haven’t had a lot of time to workout, and that is going to change. Going home will hopefully give me stability and the time to really focus on my health. I did manage to get a good workout in today. So here it is:
15 minute elliptical warm up
talk with Darren one of our personal trainers, encouraging, and positive
warmed up with 3 sets of walking lunges forwards and backwards (12 forwards 12 backwards)
followed immediately by hands to feet stability ball passes (x20)
8 sets of Kettle bell swings 12 KG for 30 seconds
followed immediately by 30 seconds of side to side medicine ball crunches
3 sets of TRX strap lunges 12 on each side
followed immediately by 8lb medicine ball crunches (pushing ball to ceiling with legs elevated as well)
1 minute of rest between
felt like puking so had to take a break
5 sets of Bosu ball squats (x15)
followed immediately by v-crunches (x20)
glute/leg kickback machine
70lbs (x12 each leg)
Squats in the squat rack with 45lb bar narrow stance, wide stance, and Plié squats
+20lbs (x12, x12, x12)
+40lbs (x5, x5, x5)
+50lbs (x2, x2, x2)
+60lbs (x2, x2, none)
Hip Abduction Machine
10 outside pulses at 150lbs (x5)
5 outside pulses at 170lbs (x4)
Smith Machine Calves toes out approx. 30 deg., toes straight, toes inwards approx. 30 deg.
20lbs (x12, x12, x12)
40lbs (x12, x12, x12)
60lbs (x8, x8, x8)
No more! I was donneeeeeee. Now I’m super tired and need a nap!
As you can see breast cancer isn’t even really on this list. Lung cancer is actually the top killer in the cancer family. But who wants to talk about lungs when we have boobs! The reason breast cancer gets so much attention is it is easily marketable, and people like to participate. There is pink for the girls, and boobs for the guys lol
So yes we should donate to this cause and raise awareness, but also remember there are other more prominent and dangerous killers out there!
(don’t mind the stuffing in hair picture, just thought it was rather funny this morning :-p)
So as you have probably heard me say, I am in a lot of debt. Partly because of my inhibitions in spending I have had during probable manic episodes, and partly due to bad decision making (don’t feel comfortable blaming it all on my mental illness). How much of each I am unsure of :-p . However, I have been working 60+ hours a week (at three jobs now!) to try and slowly claw my way out of this hole. Therefore I hadn’t worked out in over 2 months, losing all the hard earned progress that I had made since December . However, I am back at it and loving the awfully sore feeling that makes me not want to move right now.
I got a job at my gym (Vent Fitness, Clifton Park)! I love it there too. What is better than to work with the friendly and kind staff I have gotten to know over the past few months! Plus a free gym membership doesn’t hurt either 😉 . It also gives me more opportunities to work out before and after work. So I finally got to go Monday night, and yeah… I got my butt kicked…. I was shaking and sweating, and overall just dying. I will get back to where I was though, and more! I missed it so much, and the good feelings that came with it too.
I also need to make the time to eat healthier. With all the running around I have given in to the temptations of domino’s, pizza hut, and all kinds of fast food restaurants. Blegh! No more! I need to drop this extra weight I have gained and take care of myself better. More to come soon. I am going to get my organization skills working and figure this all out!
Apologize for any mistakes, I do not feel up to rereading all of this and correcting anything!
Beware: Unedited and probably full of errors- if you are a proponent of proper English, and errors send you into crazed madness do not read!
You probably know what I mean when I say I feel like my entire world is crashing at my feet. I haven’t been posting much, and I do apologize, I have just been extremely busy. Because of the debt I am in, and my future goals, I have been working 50+ hours a week. I have not had much time for the gym which I am really upset about (I probably have lost a lot of muscle mass, and set myself back significantly). Let me go through what is happening right now in my life.
I have been promoted to manager at the Saratoga Juice Bar. It is a small accomplishment, but something to be happy for. I am just glad I get to put it on my resume now! I really love working there. I enjoy the nutritional aspect, and the people I work with are very amiable. It truly is a blessing to be able to work for this establishment. Check them out at: http://saratogajuicebar.com/ if you want to take a peek!
I got a job at my Vent Fitness!!! (Clifton Park). It is only part time, but this is really what I want to start doing more and I figured what better way to start off my quest in mental and fitness health than working at the gym I really love.
I have a lot of bills, but I am finally able to pay them all myself. I am also able to spend a little money on myself as well on the side now, which I don’t even know how to explain how good that feels (girls know what I mean, shopping therapy really worksss).
My relationship of 5 years is possibly at an end. I cannot and will not point fingers at him or myself saying it is either of our faults. There were many issues, we tried out best, and in the end I don’t know if we can get past them. Either way, it is life shattering. I only remember feeling like this once before, and I hate it. I have been having to take more of my anxiety pills because I just keep thinking about it over and over and it is completely stressing me out. That heavy feeling in my chest won’t go away. I don’t know if I should respect his request for space or if he really wants me to reach out and fight for him. Either way, I always feel so confused also because I feel like my illness always gets in the way in my relationships. I feel that most likely it has affected 50% or more, and I hate it. Looking back now I can see the patterns, and I had some really wonderful kind people, but I would get into this strange period where I was just done. I was cold, unfeeling, emotionless, for almost no reason. That is not what happened here, but there was another factor. Basically I am sad, tired, lonely, and utterly unhappy. (If you know me and you are reading this, please don’t feel the need to do anything, I am not writing this as a call for help from you or for any pity. It is just for those out there who are struggling too.)
My bills are really high. I need to figure out if there is any federal exemptions for people with mental illnesses. I have to start paying back some of my loans next month because I failed last semester (had another episode). So I really need to do some research, and if any of you know anything about things like this please share!
I am having a lot of trouble sleeping. I don’t want to take my anxiety medicine to sleep, but have consistently been unable to sleep through the night. This just adds to my fatigue, and when I am not working usually you can find me in my bed. I am currently struggling to get up and finish cleaning like I want to.
Having trouble eating, not hungry. I actually could consider this good, because maybe I’ll finally lose some weight, but no. Its either I am not hungry, or I am binge eating on bad things. I need to get this under control, but I am pretty sure I am battling a slight case of depression right now, so oh wells. Nothing new lol :-p
Don’t worry I am still fighting, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I believe God has a plan for me, that I am on this earth for a purpose, and I will get there one day.
As usual I am including videos that give decent examples of how to do the exercises yourselves. This is part of how I learned myself, as well as getting involved at the gym with some of the trainers in smaller classes. I was able to learn through their corrections, and videos online how to do most of what I am doing now. As bad as it sounds, if you can afford it, I would definitely suggest getting a personal trainer to at least teach you proper form and how to do different workouts. If your gym offers free equipment instruction, and if the workers are willing to help, take advantage of that as well! I have pulled Scott from my gym a few times to show me how to use a machine or if I am doing an exercise correctly.
I don’t even know how to really describe how I do these and I can’t seem to find a video on it either! Maybe I am doing something really wrong and dangerous lol I guess I should ask someone at the gym sometime :-p
Did 5 sets of these 1 minute on and 30 seconds rest