Sore in Unimaginable Places

First time doing gravity at my gym yesterday in a while, and I am PAYING for it this morning! It hurts, but it is a good pain! It means I accomplished something, I pushed myself hard enough to get results. I just wish I had never stopped a few months ago, cause I lost so much. I will get back there though, and be stronger and better!

In the gravity class at my gym yesterday I used the TRX straps to do a general overall body workout targeting many different areas. If you haven’t ever seen or used TRX equipment here is the website:

https://www.trxtraining.com/?gclid=CJ3YorLSxcECFZSDaQodKysAjg

Every time I do these classes I almost always spend the next couple of days  feeling the after effects. I love working my hamstrings on the TRX straps the most. I always have trouble really isolating the muscles on the gym’s machines. However, using the straps, I always end slapping the floor with fatigue. Yes, when I get to my limit I have to close my eyes, grunt, breathe, and puusshhhhhh (and look like a little crazy- but good crazy…I think…lol). I kind of want the straps for Christmas (especially the pink set!).

https://www.trxtraining.com/products/trx-home-pink?gclid=CNSyoLHUxcECFbFDMgod0hcA-Q

Bah time to do some cleaning, then hit up the gym for another workout! Plan is to do more core and lower back work, and also hit up one of my favorite classes that I just have so much fun in (posted about earlier) Body Jam with Mel!

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Why Hello There, My World: Good and Bad

 

Apologize for any mistakes, I do not feel up to rereading all of this and correcting anything!

Beware: Unedited and probably full of errors- if you are a proponent of proper English, and errors send you into crazed madness do not read!

You probably know what I mean when I say I feel like my entire world is crashing at my feet. I haven’t been posting much, and I do apologize, I have just been extremely busy. Because of the debt I am in, and my future goals, I have been working 50+ hours a week. I have not had much time for the gym :/ which I am really upset about (I probably have lost a lot of muscle mass, and set myself back significantly). Let me go through what is happening right now in my life.

The Good

  • I have been promoted to manager at the Saratoga Juice Bar. It is a small accomplishment, but something to be happy for. I am just glad I get to put it on my resume now! I really love working there. I enjoy the nutritional aspect, and the people I work with are very amiable. It truly is a blessing to be able to work for this establishment. Check them out at: http://saratogajuicebar.com/ if you want to take a peek!
  • I got a job at my Vent Fitness!!! (Clifton Park). It is only part time, but this is really what I want to start doing more and I figured what better way to start off my quest in mental and fitness health than working at the gym I really love.
  • I have a lot of bills, but I am finally able to pay them all myself. I am also able to spend a little money on myself as well on the side now, which I don’t even know how to explain how good that feels (girls know what I mean, shopping therapy really worksss).

The Bad

  • My relationship of 5 years is possibly at an end. I cannot and will not point fingers at him or myself saying it is either of our faults. There were many issues, we tried out best, and in the end I don’t know if we can get past them. Either way, it is life shattering. I only remember feeling like this once before, and I hate it. I have been having to take more of my anxiety pills because I just keep thinking about it over and over and it is completely stressing me out. That heavy feeling in my chest won’t go away. I don’t know if I should respect his request for space or if he really wants me to reach out and fight for him. Either way, I always feel so confused also because I feel like my illness always gets in the way in my relationships. I feel that most likely it has affected 50% or more, and I hate it. Looking back now I can see the patterns, and I had some really wonderful kind people, but I would get into this strange period where I was just done. I was cold, unfeeling, emotionless, for almost no reason. That is not what happened here, but there was another factor. Basically I am sad, tired, lonely, and utterly unhappy. (If you know me and you are reading this, please don’t feel the need to do anything, I am not writing this as a call for help from you or for any pity. It is just for those out there who are struggling too.)
  • My bills are really high. I need to figure out if there is any federal exemptions for people with mental illnesses. I have to start paying back some of my loans next month because I failed last semester (had another episode). So I really need to do some research, and if any of you know anything about things like this please share!
  • I am having a lot of trouble sleeping. I don’t want to take my anxiety medicine to sleep, but  have consistently been unable to sleep through the night. This just adds to my fatigue, and when I am not working usually you can find me in my bed. I am currently struggling to get up and finish cleaning like I want to.
  • Having trouble eating, not hungry. I actually could consider this good, because maybe I’ll finally lose some weight, but no. Its either I am not hungry, or I am binge eating on bad things. I need to get this under control, but I am pretty sure I am battling a slight case of depression right now, so oh wells. Nothing new lol :-p

 

Don’t worry I am still fighting, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I believe God has a plan for me, that I am on this earth for a purpose, and I will get there one day.