Everything All at ONCE!

I am a busy girl, and between working out and my 3 jobs right now I get a little tired. Therefore mass posting occurs!

First on my agenda is my gym friend’s competition! She worked so hard, and really stuck to her meal plans, so of course she looked amazing! You can follow her progress etc. at: Instagram: ashl3ycrews

Here are some photos from her show:

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I have met some really great and friendly people at my jobs, and have had a strange resurgent in my social life. Don’t get me wrong, I totally love it! I am just tiirreedddd lol I am slowly starting to realize I am not as young as I used to be :-p I neeeed my sleep! Specially with everything I am doing! However, how can I say no to the opportunity to do myself up and go out! My favorite thing to do! As well as be with fun and sweet people!

First on my list is my night out with the other Ashley! (too many Ashleys lol) She is also working towards a competition of her own and runs her own Instagram page: ashleyclyne ! We went out in toga a couple of times recently (she just turned 21 recently so of course I love taking her out and being her DD!). Here are some photos of our shenanigans and some photos of her herself so you can see what she is all about!

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Alsooo my idea to make a Halloween costume totally fell through when the sewing machine ended up being broken! I had a backup plan though so I went to see Hunter Hayes instead! It  was such an amazing concert and fun! He is so talented, and a complete cutie. He played many different guitars, the piano, and the drums during the concert. Had a really really fun time!

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My life is still hard right now. I am making some extremely difficult decisions that I am not too happy about. Some of which make me vulnerable, and I hate feeling unsure and insecure. I will push through this though and be stronger than ever in the end, like always. I am just glad I have so much to do to keep me busy, helps me to keep going. Plus I am meeting some great people who have really brightened my days as well <3. I haven’t had any major depression or anxiety problems since last year! So hooray for that! 🙂

Keep shining

You may just be the light that someone needed

I know I did

That I do

I always will.

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My First 5k! Run Dead at Saratoga Springs State Park

I did it! I ran my first 5k! When I say ran, I actually successfully ran the whole way! I am so proud of myself 🙂 I didn’t think I could do it honestly! I haven’t run a full 3.5 miles in like ummm 2 or more years I think. So when I went today I thought I would just do my best, and I did!

Although let me tell you… Ummm I might have gone a little off course.

Yes! Embarrassingly enough I managed to somehow run past a turn, and proceed to run up this very large, steep hill that I almost died trying to climb… Only to realize that there was no one else around me anymore! I therefore had to turn around, and run down through the woods to find the rest of the runners. I emerged from the forest to find people I had passed a ways back looking at me like what the heck!!! Bahaha :-p Yup I am one of those people blessed with the ability to do something wrong/get lost no matter what! I was laughing at myself the whole way home.

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So instead of 3.5 miles I am pretty sure I ran at least 4 miles, and I am going to be taking 5 or so minutes off my time! LOL Oh geez…. Really!!!????

So I am feeing accomplished. Happy. Satisfied.

That endorphin rush was well worth it!

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Cold Pressed Specials- Saratoga Juice Bar

As some of you might know I manage/cold press at my local juice bar! If you haven’t ever had cold pressed juices find a store/bar near you! They are delish, with no fillers (ours are only the juices from the fruits/veggies!).

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Sunday Funday (If that is what you want to call it!)

1:30am wake up call! (not really but just woke up and figured I could get things done!)

Plan of the day:
1- clean house/room so roomie doesn’t come home and strangle me (been so tired lately it is so hard to keep up with keeping everything neat!- who wants to buy me a maid haha jk)
2- work at the juice bar (DOUBLE today!)
3- workout sometime in-between (cause lord knows I’m not going to work out at the end of the day! I’m aiming for the Zumba class with Roxy today at Vent Fitness in Clifton Park!!)

 Enjoy your Sunday!

Girls Night Out

I actually had a Friday night and Sunday morning off! So I got to go out with some of my girls, and loved every minute of it. Even though I crashed and burned around 2am and couldn’t make it past that. Then I “recovered” all this morning… I didn’t even drink that much really, and sheesh I am showing my age! I need like a whole day to recover from nights out now. It was worth it though!

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Except I didn’t get to work out this morning :/

Wishing you joy and happiness for the rest of this weekend!

Enjoy!

Make memories that will last a lifetime!

Why Hello There, My World: Good and Bad

 

Apologize for any mistakes, I do not feel up to rereading all of this and correcting anything!

Beware: Unedited and probably full of errors- if you are a proponent of proper English, and errors send you into crazed madness do not read!

You probably know what I mean when I say I feel like my entire world is crashing at my feet. I haven’t been posting much, and I do apologize, I have just been extremely busy. Because of the debt I am in, and my future goals, I have been working 50+ hours a week. I have not had much time for the gym :/ which I am really upset about (I probably have lost a lot of muscle mass, and set myself back significantly). Let me go through what is happening right now in my life.

The Good

  • I have been promoted to manager at the Saratoga Juice Bar. It is a small accomplishment, but something to be happy for. I am just glad I get to put it on my resume now! I really love working there. I enjoy the nutritional aspect, and the people I work with are very amiable. It truly is a blessing to be able to work for this establishment. Check them out at: http://saratogajuicebar.com/ if you want to take a peek!
  • I got a job at my Vent Fitness!!! (Clifton Park). It is only part time, but this is really what I want to start doing more and I figured what better way to start off my quest in mental and fitness health than working at the gym I really love.
  • I have a lot of bills, but I am finally able to pay them all myself. I am also able to spend a little money on myself as well on the side now, which I don’t even know how to explain how good that feels (girls know what I mean, shopping therapy really worksss).

The Bad

  • My relationship of 5 years is possibly at an end. I cannot and will not point fingers at him or myself saying it is either of our faults. There were many issues, we tried out best, and in the end I don’t know if we can get past them. Either way, it is life shattering. I only remember feeling like this once before, and I hate it. I have been having to take more of my anxiety pills because I just keep thinking about it over and over and it is completely stressing me out. That heavy feeling in my chest won’t go away. I don’t know if I should respect his request for space or if he really wants me to reach out and fight for him. Either way, I always feel so confused also because I feel like my illness always gets in the way in my relationships. I feel that most likely it has affected 50% or more, and I hate it. Looking back now I can see the patterns, and I had some really wonderful kind people, but I would get into this strange period where I was just done. I was cold, unfeeling, emotionless, for almost no reason. That is not what happened here, but there was another factor. Basically I am sad, tired, lonely, and utterly unhappy. (If you know me and you are reading this, please don’t feel the need to do anything, I am not writing this as a call for help from you or for any pity. It is just for those out there who are struggling too.)
  • My bills are really high. I need to figure out if there is any federal exemptions for people with mental illnesses. I have to start paying back some of my loans next month because I failed last semester (had another episode). So I really need to do some research, and if any of you know anything about things like this please share!
  • I am having a lot of trouble sleeping. I don’t want to take my anxiety medicine to sleep, but  have consistently been unable to sleep through the night. This just adds to my fatigue, and when I am not working usually you can find me in my bed. I am currently struggling to get up and finish cleaning like I want to.
  • Having trouble eating, not hungry. I actually could consider this good, because maybe I’ll finally lose some weight, but no. Its either I am not hungry, or I am binge eating on bad things. I need to get this under control, but I am pretty sure I am battling a slight case of depression right now, so oh wells. Nothing new lol :-p

 

Don’t worry I am still fighting, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I believe God has a plan for me, that I am on this earth for a purpose, and I will get there one day.

Yelping: Spot Coffee

So I just starting reviewing places on Yelp! Thought I would add it to my list of things I post on here also. Trying to make this a multitasking/multifunctional blog.

 

Omelet with whole grain/wheat focaccia!

Omelet with whole grain/wheat focaccia!

http://www.yelp.com/biz/spot-coffee-cafe-saratoga-springs?hrid=uFN0Lp3dkA876TVFTp7Bjg

And thank you to everyone who has followed me and given support. I really appreciate it! Feels good to know I am reaching and hopefully helping other people.

Wonderful thing I saw tonight on facebook:

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Beet Salad!

So I had a yummy beet salad at the Crown Grill on Monday!

http://crowngrillsaratoga.com/

Check out their website if you are visiting or live near the Saratoga area! They are an upscale casual restaurant and both salads I have tried there have been delicious! Although I do have to highly recommend that you like/love beets to eat the Heirloom salad, because it is literally mostly beet medallions with some cheese, nuts, and dressing (see picture).

Heirloom Beets and their Crown Market Salad are delicious!

Will Post about anything else I try and just adore!

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Saratoga Spa State Park Workout!

Felt like hitting up the outdoors and trying something different outside of the gym. Got a little dirty and sweaty, but overall enjoyed it! My whole body is actually protesting right now (so soreee, especially my hamstringsss). Being on my feet for around 60 hours this week, and trying to workout is going to take some getting used to. I am optimistic :).

Here is a little video from my workout in the park.

Workout consisted of:

-10 sets of sprints with 1 minute of rest in-between

-inversion hand stands (wow, harder than you think after not doing these for over 10 years!)

– Regular and Tricep Pushups for a total of: 2 each not on my knees, and 50 knee pushups (25 regular and 25 tricep)

– Then burpees with 45 seconds on and 15 seconds rest for 5 sets

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